If you're reading this, you're a Point of Light
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Emotional pain is hard and can feel very dark. In that darkness, you can feel isolated, alone, and very lonely. I've been there, and I empathize with you more than you can know. It's because I've been where you are, that down to the very marrow of my bones, I understand you need someone to appreciate your light, color, and beauty. This blog is here to let you know you're not alone. It is here to help you understand just how much I empathize with you by telling you my story, in which I have experienced very deep emotional pain while also thinking I lived in that pitch blackness. I'll show you my journey through that darkness, where I found I always write about light and color to find some beauty in my life. Then I'm going to show you how being fiercely honest about some intrinsic ugliness in my life finally helped me leave my pain and darkness behind. My journey has lead me to finally notice I'm a colorful and beautiful Point Of Light.
My Method
Find The Color Of Light For Your Own Word Paintings
In this blog, you'll always find me referring to you as a Point Of Light because despite what you might feel: you're not alone; I love you; I'm proud of you; I see your light. As you read my posts, understand they journal my attempts to find beauty in a life lived. They show the way that even through difficult times, by allowing light to pierce my darkness, I was able to see color and find beauty. When I write I always use my color palette of words to paint vivid and beautiful pictures. Most importantly, this blog is also about how I believe you can do the same. How? By searching your heart to find even the tiniest fragments of light and use whatever color they give you to write the beautiful story you have waiting inside. Here's an excellent method you can use to help you accomplish this:
​What's in a word? Not much, right? But look more closely at a word. Look closely and tell me what you see. Look at the word light. Look at the word color. Look at the word beauty. Look at the word happy. Finally, look at the word love. Your eye might see a word and dismiss it with the seeing, but in the looking does it change your affect?
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Can a word make you smile? Can a word cause welcome warmth to fill your body? Can a word compel you to emote a good feeling? Seriously, look at those word suggestions while also giving the questions serious thought. Think plainly and clearly. Allow your views of the individual words—light, color, beauty, happiness, and love—coalesce together in unity. Allow their accord to soar as they fly high in your heart's sky. As you enjoy their flight with them, look down as they see the bright green trees growing on the mountains below. Feel with them the wind while you look to see the clear azure skies. Now enjoy a smile of complete happiness by experiencing the warmth of a radiant sun gently caressing your outstretched wings.
For as long as you like, take these thoughts as high and as far as you want while you look with them at all the colorful, beautiful sights! When you finally settle down back to earth, once again ask yourself, "What's in a word?" Pretty good question, right? Answer the question by writing out its answer and let your words flow. As you write, never forget: you're not alone; I love you; I'm proud of you; I see your light.
Reading
As you read the blog posts I write, my hope is their light, color, and beauty are visible to you. Know in everything I write; I search my heart with honesty so I can sincerely write what's real and transparently authentic. I also hope you'll notice the picture I'm trying to paint using colorful words. I hope they bring you some beauty and help you smile. Check them out here.
Writing
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I want to encourage you to write for yourself. To help you achieve this awesome goal, I've created an interactive group page specifically set up so you can practice writing out your own word paintings - sharing as much or as little as you like! Check it out here. This is what I put in one of the posts for you: "Points Of Light, write all the time. Search your heart with sincerity and be honest with your words and write those words wherever they fall. Save what you write because like me, maybe there'll be times you'll need the catalog of your writings to look back on to put the light back into a dark day." Check It out here.
Fierce Honesty
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Learn to be Fiercely Honest — Make a Fearless Inventory of the Real You. I know there are so many people unaware they're a Point Of Light, who suffer severe emotional pain and feel they're living in utter darkness, just like I once did. ​Maybe you're one of those people. I've found, and I genuinely believe healing can only come through what I call being fiercely honest. In this blog, without shame, I show you my process of becoming transparently and fiercely honest though journaling a fearless inventory of the real me. I show you how that both helped lead to my healing and played a part in being the genesis for this blog. Check it out here.
​Points of Light I hope this blog can inspire you to arrive at a place of sincere and transparent honesty. If you can allow that to happen, I believe it can help you find your light, color, beauty, and happiness in the following ways:
Are You Thinking Of Suicide?
When extreme emotional pain is all we feel and when the darkness overwhelms us, life can seem to be unbearable. You need to know there's a very tender place inside me that deeply understands your pain. More than you could ever know, I empathize with you. You see, for me, there was also that time when I felt surrounded by pitch blackness. My hurt ran deep and the pain felt unbearable. I found all I wanted to do was to just get it over and have it come to an end. Just like you, I considered suicide.
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But this is what I needed someone to tell me, and this is what I'm going to tell you: if you have a plan to commit suicide call 911 now. When you call 911, I promise they will get you the help you need. I ask you to search your most secretive of secret places where you'll find you've been asking for help all along. Even if you believe you haven't that secret place, Just Call 911 Anyway. When you call them, honestly tell them what's on your mind; tell them you feel like ending your life; tell them you have a plan to end your life. Do this before you think about anything else. Please call now. Please call 911.
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If you're considering suicide, but you don't have an actual plan to carry it out (or even if you do) you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. If you're a veteran you can call the Veterans Crisis Line at 1-800-273-8255 and select 1 to start a confidential Veterans chat. Either way, just call. Someone is there who desperately wants to talk to you. That word "talk." This whole blog is about using words as a means to find something more out of life. I am also always suggesting you write these words, but right now is the time to talk. Right now you need to use your words to talk and find more. So call, talk, and use your words to find more, please.
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You need to know right now at this very moment and in this very place, your family and friends love you. Most tenderly and compassionately I ask you to consider for just a minute: if you commit suicide, what will the family and friends you've left behind to pick up the pieces do when they find you've been inexplicably taken away from them? What will they be left to think when they try to figure out what they could have done differently to prevent you from committing suicide? Will they be left to blame themselves? Yes, these are hard questions and my hope based on the Light of love is that these questions will help you want to call the numbers above. As I always say, you're not alone; I love you; I'm proud of you, and I see your Light. Please call.
