Baleful Verses Light

When a man has found a woman's love, he's discovered the most precious substance in the universe.  A life lived is hopefully full of emotion.  Emotions bring us to so many places, and as we arrive at these destinations we can cry, laugh, hate, love, and feel whatever our destination asks us to feel.  At no better destination does anyone wish to arrive than love and upon arrival, a man wishes more than anything to find that most precious substance in the universe.  Still, when one arrives at that place called love, life continues to demand our undivided attention and loyalty.  It's life then that darkens the light of love, dimming its colors, and causes the beauty of love to look faded and dull.  A life lived always seeks to live in loves destination, but life lived doesn't make navigating this place easy.  In this struggle to navigate, we can only hope to stay in love. And so a life lived through love goes as it has always gone.  But about that word so, it's an okay word because a life lived in love is worth a struggle, anyone who's ever lived there will tell you so.        Living in this place, when a man discovers he loves this woman in return, he knows he's found loves true destination.  For them, the light found in their love has given him every color he ever hoped to have and it's with this color that he finds nothing but ultimate beauty in this place he'd always felt to be only as real as the city of El Dorado. So while he'd sighed before, he's never sighed with true contentment.  He's grateful for this sound, this sound he makes as he experiences this truly contented sigh.  Then life lived happens. Still, even living in love, life throws so many things his way.  While love floods his heart with all its warm light, he has the opportunity to experience every color in the rainbow.  Best of all and most importantly to him, with all the tenderness in the world, he experiences all this light and all these colors with her!  Together with her, he chooses to see the bright happy colors and his heart smiles abound.  Then that previous word "still" happens and his lived life allows all this light to dull.  Navigating love now becomes harder for him as he notices more and more colors that to him are darker and colder.    It's now more than ever when there's nothing better than having this woman's love with her precious light, colors, beauty, and warmth by his side, especially when he's become louder and more menacing even as he's living in this amazing place.  In his heart, as he feels the light dimming, he becomes darker and acts colder toward this remarkable woman.  Living life means he now forcible takes from her all the love she freely offers him.  But a life lived is a funny thing and while he's living in the cold and acting on his darker impulses, he still aware her love for him is the most precious thing in the universe.  Dispite his feelings, there are still those moments laying next to her as he steals her loving light and in his shame, he manages to gently caresses her lovely cheek and she knows the spark of light still in his heart.  They both sigh an uncertain sigh.