In a life lived heart smiles become more important the longer life is lived - I've lived a long life. My life has always been in search of beauty that would give me heart smiles that would both almost immediately fade or last for moments that stayed around to love on me during those periods of my life that would become sublime fragments I always have, and always will cherish. May I replay one of those moments for you - "Anyway, whenever I was in school and we had that time when we could draw pictures with crayons, I mostly drew pictures of being outside and I would never forget to draw the grass green, the sky blue, the clouds puffy and white, but especially the sun big, bright and yellow with those warm yellow rays coming off it. My April, my yellow sun!" Points Of Light, as I say in "About the Author" portion of our blog, even as a little boy "I was ...seeking light, ...searching to find light's color so I could ultimately find beauty. Why? So that little boy could be happy and find a way to smile." Especially in fragments, lights importance becomes paramount as this light affords you the colors you need to paint pictures that allow your heart to smile at their beauty.
When I look back on a long life lived I get to see many seasons and periods of that life that was both grand and less than sad. But having moved through time and space for such a long time and for so great a distance, I'm blessed with very awesome and overwhelming wealth in being able to look backward and reflect on my life lived. I've found so many truth's in a long life lived, one of those truths is that all the seasons and periods of my life lived, both the grand ones and the ones that were less than sad contained light that gave me more colors than my simple mind could nuance in how that added important contrast that painted my life for me to be more beautiful than I could have otherwise imagined and painted on my own. Looking from left to right at this mural of my life still being painted and finally being able to come into this revelation of all the wealth I own, as my sight scans past all the moments of my life I once thought had faded or that remained as sublime fragments, I also get to see pieces of my life painted for me with colors that were never meant to betray bright happy instances of my life lived. Still, every one of those colors was painted because light has always permeated my life. As my eyes continue to scan this amazing mural, I'm struck by nuances of so many colors I'd never previously had the wealth to notice and their lovely contrast gives me new beauty I had never before realized had always been present in my life.
It's the wealth of all this beauty added and multiplied together that's afforded me the luxury to buy more light for my life while someone has added to my heart even more colors than I could've ever imagined existed even as she gives me all the beauty I ever hoped existed in a great big world that exists for me here in the middle of a cornfield in the middle of just one country in this great big world. If Wikipedia featured a pictured in its entry that explains to the world the meaning of a heart smile, that picture would be of Angela Kay Lieberknecht Egnew - Groves - Soon To Be Mrs. Price.
Angela is so intelligent, beautiful, kind, compassionate, loving, caring, soft, feminine, sensual, and tender. We enjoy talking to one another and we share with one another our deepest selves. Throughout the day, rather it's face to face, over the phone, or via text, we do a repartee, or Tit for Tat's that we both thoroughly enjoy and literally laugh out loud for the sheer joy of the others tat to our tit. We hold hands, kiss, and touching one another is also received with great relish!
Angela and I share a love for music and not just that we enjoy a similar taste in this mutual love, but we can discuss the music we deeply love with so much passionate philosophizing and we appreciate with so much respect when the other's interpretation of a song differs from our own. That word respect, just wow!
Angela is always honest with me as I'm always honest with her. In our honesty, we always know and believe without condition, the other will continue to stay by our side. It's intrinsically understood there's nothing that will cause either of us to leave the other - fear is never a consideration between us.
Through all my years of finding light that would allow colors to come to me so I could paint pictures that gave beauty to anyone who read something I'd written, well, I've finally found out what it's always been about - a heart smile. But not just any heart smile, a heart smile that would never leave me, said another way, its always been about finding an everlasting heart smile. Said yet another way, I finally realized I've always been writing about Angela.
Points Of Light, write, and never cease to write. Someday, I know you'll find your Angela!
As Always With All Love and Peace Tod w/ one d
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